Well, last night was the finale for The Biggest Loser. Each season, I usually get all excited about it and can't wait for it to come on. This time, there was a really "blah" feeling about it. I think I get disappointed in the show sometimes. Don't get me wrong. If I had the chance to leave my life for a while and go on the show to lose weight, I totally would. I just see that it's kind of the same every year. People who were sent home earlier, generally don't lose as much weight. How could you really make a huge change if you only had a week or two of guidance on a problem that took years to create? People who were at the ranch longer, lose more weight. Duh! Let's see what else? On air marriage proposal...check. Contestants who starve themselves to win the money...check. Last person on the scale winning (except for last season)...check. Confetti...check. Blah, blah, blah.
I think the biggest source of my feelings about the show is about inspiration. My source of inspiration has shifted. I am becoming my own inspiration. My heels are having some days when they actually feel tolerable. On those days, I move around more. I went to the gym this past Monday morning. My feet hurt worse in the mornings, so I'm hoping to start going after work soon. I started walking to the neighboring building to get the mail during work each day for a little more exercise (and because I get impatient waiting for anyone else to volunteer to do it). I walk around in the office more as well.
Last Thursday (December 3, 2009), our Weight Watchers (WW) meeting officially started here at work. It was our first official weigh-in for the 19 week program. As usual, I'm the biggest person there. We had an information session on November 19. I stayed after the meeting and had the meeting leader weigh me. I will not say my weight (I'm still not comfortable enough yet to do that). I had lost 10 pounds since my physical in September. We did not have a meeting the next week because of the Thanksgiving holiday. So, last week was the start of the program. When I weighed, I had lost 3 pounds over the two weeks. I had not been going to the gym and had been off of my feet most of the time because of the spurs. I don't know what I did to lose the 3 pounds. Back in January 2007 was the last time I tried WW. From my highest lifetime weight in January 2007 until last Thursday, I have lost 27 pounds. That may not be "biggest loser numbers", but at least I'm heading in the right direction. I also have to believe that those are 27 pounds that will be gone forever because I took my time to lose them. They are the result of a little more physical activity and not drinking sodas since February.
The biggest challenge for me with the WW program are my own faulty eating habits. I do this "thing" with eating. I will go a good portion of the day without eating and then be starving by 4pm and ready to catch up on my food intake. I eat all of my calories between 4pm and 10pm. I have tried to stop this behavior, but have been unsuccessful. So, WW will be a test for me in this area. This past week I ate sparingly during the day and still "pig out" at dinner time. I have, however, managed to stay within my points allotment on the program each day. Two times I went out for fast food because I was craving fatty foods. I feel so out of control.
I hope I can just get up the energy and feel well enough to get back to the gym regularly. I miss going. It was my time to sweat, listen to music, read, and just be left alone in my own little world. It is a good way to start the day. If I could get the eating and the exercise to harmonize, life would be good.
I almost forgot, I promise to take the time to start putting up pictures on the blog so anyone who is reading can see my progress.
